Letting go of yellow...

I'm at the point where I need to pass on some of my volunteer responsibilities. When I started these jobs, my workload was pretty light. That's no longer the case.

As I started thinking about handing off one particular job, my brain immediately filled with all kinds of ideas about how to make it better, all the things that need to be done before I hand it off, how to manage it after I hand it off, and on and on - a flurry of bright yellow sparks of creativity. It was exhausting.

Then I remembered I've been trying to focus on the qualities of brown - groundedness, support, earth, the restoring hibernation of winter. This isn't the time for "busy" energy. This is the time for rest and reflection. So I visualized gathering all those bright yellow idea sparks and bringing them back into a seed and a pot of soil and then handing them off to someone else. Then I could let go.

That was my problem! I wasn't willing to let go and let someone else take over and be creative about the job. Once I brought it back to "seed and soil," I felt much calmer. I can do this. I can hand it off and let someone else make it grow.

This focus on colors is so amazing to me. It is helping me see more clearly the natural rhythms of life and how I get myself out of whack. There's a season for things. This is the season for reflection and restoration. The season for creating and growing is coming, but it's not here yet. When I'm out of sync with my natural rhythm, I feel like I spin my wheels and waste so much energy. Seeing the world through colors, I understand more quickly what those rhythms are and what I need right now.